that's so great!...

lately i've noticed more and more asian children (all girls...) with their caucasian parents, mostly at the grocery store.  

the other day a little girl asked her mother for some kettle chips.  

last week another little girl asked for some candy.  

fyi - both girls got what they wanted.  

i'm a catering chef and the company i work for just provided lunch for a baby shower.  

the woman didn't look pregnant, didn't look like she had just had a baby, and looked a bit too old to be pregnant (even with hi-tech help).  

i didn't know what to make of the situation, so i stayed in the kitchen and resisted the urge to congratulate the guest of honor. 

good thing too!  i probably would have asked her, 'so when is the baby due?'...turns out she adopted a two week old baby girl.  

and just yesterday i learned one of our servers and his wife just adopted a two year old boy.  

my boss ran up to me with a huge grin on her face to let me know the good news.  

and in my best fake happy voice, with my best fake happy smile, i said, 'oh my god!  that's so great!'  

as soon as i said it, i could hear the insincerity in my voice.  

hopefully nobody else did.  

sure, it's great a child has a home and good people for parents, but part of me felt sadness for the potential and likely struggles this boy would have to face.  

i wonder if i'll ever be completely, truly happy for adoptive parents.  my guess is no... 

can any adoptee???